Im looking to translate (as a female):
I am so sorry for the things I have done, i never wanted you to hate me or stop talking to me. I regret everyday losing you and i wish i showed you more how much you meant to me. I cant get over you, i miss you so much.
A lot has changed, i live a better life and i learned that i was very selfish in the past, i hope one day you can forgive me and talk to me again.