Difficult

There’s something wrong with my previous user right now, anyway please help meeeee I want this to reach the guy… (me girl, and he is a boy obviously :P)

This is what I want to be translated:

"My life before you came to me was okey… but I was always striving for something I didn’t know what it was… but then you came and I thought in the beginning that it was the worst thing that had happened to me because you blew me away… I was stunned by you and mad at the same time. Because I didn’t want to become to like someone, because I’ve seen before what bad things comes from liking someone. But later on… I realized that this is different… this thing between you and I.